Holding the sun....

I have the "sister" to this picture/illusion "Woman holding the moon" on my other blogsite http://www.DamagedBricks.blogspot.com, if you would like to see it. Both photos have come to me today and as I have stated I believe it is because I am in a state of reflection today as I approach my 40th birthday tomorrow.

I also believe this picture is appropriate for this blog because the first novel I wrote in 2004 was called "Following the Son" and perhaps it is time to revisit it and reconsider the truth of the title.

The novel is about the lessons learned during the pregnancy and subsequent loss of her son, that lead to self discovery in ways that previously had been foreign. The inspiration for the title was from the song by Engima called "Following the Sun" had the lyrics of:

Following the sun, to find the one
Who's giving you the wings to fly
Following the sun, the golden one
Losing sense for space and time

Can you feel the waves of life
(Can you) hear the sigh of love
Do you believe in it ?

Following the sun, just for the one
Till you'll find the door you thought
Following the sun, like everyone
Searching for a sign of hope

Have a look up to the sky
See the billion stars above
Cos (maybe) on one of them
You'll spend your further life

I wonder if instead of Following the Sun... today I should revisit the story to amend it to emcompass the love for her son is still there, but instead of feeling the loss and hopelessness leading her to follow him, I should change it to her finding a place of "Holding the Son" in her heart.

I don't know if he will come back to her in another time, another form or another life, but I do know that she is richer for the experience and carries it with her through her travels of life.

With age comes perspective and change, what changes can you now make with the gift of time that you have been given?