Abandoned...

Abandoned is the name of this picture, but as it was posted randomly, I do not know the author, but am however happy to give full credit if anybody knows who they are.

I like the picture because while it is abandoned, it still has hope. The open door, the open window, the white wash, the seeming careful placement of the camouflage made of local surroundings, all seem hopeful to me.  Like they were placed intentionally, with care.

My question is about whether it was done to keep themselves in or to keep others out.  To deflect from the real emotion or simply to elicit a response from others that can be tracked?

That is how I write as well.  I don't know how it works for some, but I know for me, I can usually hear the different "voices/sides/opinions" so can fairly easily "argue" for one or several perspectives. I find it easy to sit in the various shoes, wear the various hats.

When I am having a strong moment, I see that as a skill, a talent. When I am in a different place, the various positions can scare me, until I realize I am just exploring all of the options, to learn about them, so I can make my own, informed decisions. I am learning to recognize the difference between figuring it out for myself personally and then sharing parts of the search with each of my characters.  In my mind I believe that is what writing is about.  Making that connection. It must be hard to do if you aren't using any genuine thought or emotion from which to right from.

That said, the exception for me would be about something I have no knowledge about. That I am learning about, doing research for, in order to complete my story.  If I am truly honest, I think I like both parts equally. The coming up with ideas, doing the background research etc,. then having the web spin out in front of me as I start to write.

My personal challenge is the editing. Not that I dont enjoy making my work better, because I truly believe there is room for improvement until the day I die.  My hesitation is based on the fear that if I go back to edit my work, my original thoughts/feelings and impact will be lost with further wordsmithing.  The voice in my head says that is fear of failing or fear of succeeding by actually trying it. The rational voice in my head says to get over myself, yet I remain inactive.

I know it isn't writers block...and I have complete faith that just be continuing to write, something, anything, I will resolve whatever the issue is.

While we writers think we are unique in our thoughts, our stories and the words we use to share them, I am sure we are all the same in other areas. I cannot believe I am the only one who has editing paralysis.  Even if I am... that is ok...

So I have committed to at least do this blog, no matter what else I may do... until I no longer consider myself inactive.  And no, I will not question why I think writing anything other than my novel is considered inactive *lol*

Until I am ready to spend more time with my thoughts and keyboards, I hope your words find you easily and freely.